Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Wendy, a former crystal meth addict in Los Angeles. Here's how to get Wendy's book: https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/mother-load-a-memoir-of-addiction-gun-violence--finding-a-life-of-purpose_wendy-adamson/21624450/item/32764716/?srsltid=AfmBOoo7NKIJlTqUTXQtM0SIucLMTsj2P_z7lWcQdPKnNezjy7DMJ2b21CE#idiq=32764716&edition=23095632 For ad-free, uncensored videos and plenty of exclusive content please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. 0:00 – A Light Through the Ceiling 0:40 – Growing Up With A Schizophrenic Mother 1:28 – Her Mother’s Suicide 2:16 – Psychosis, Trauma, & Family Patterns 3:39 – Secrets Inside The Family 5:08 – Dropping Out & Finding Addiction 5:38 – Following Her Mother’s Path 6:26 – Meth, Rage, & A Gunshot 8:25 – The Bullet Hits 10:03 – Realizing The Damage Done To Her Children 12:44 – The Night Everything Changed 15:17 – The Light Entered Her Chest 16:26 – Was It God? 17:11 – Searching For Meaning & Recovery 18:18 – A Pair Of Shoes 19:33 – Giving Shoes To The Homeless 20:43 – “What A Loser” 22:16 – Losing Her Son 23:34 – Shame, Addiction, & Forgiveness 25:56 – Writing The Book 27:21 – Breaking The Family Lineage 28:33 – Spiritual Awakening 29:32 – “I Was The Girl Nobody Visited” 31:11 – The Most Important Lesson Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly books and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #documentary #marklaita #drugeducation #jealousy #addict #losangeles #shame #recovery