Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Vincent Esposito, a retired NYPD captain. For ad-free, uncensored videos and plenty of exclusive content please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. 0:00 – Intro 0:35 – Growing Up In Queens 3:00 – Uncle’s Addiction & Lessons On Drugs 6:27 – First Encounters With Death 8:12 – Entering The Academy 12:18 – Training & Exposure 17:21 – Culture Shock & Police Subculture 18:35 – Routine Death & Suicide Scenes 24:05 – First Wellness Check 28:34 – Internal Stress & Violent Incidents 30:47 – Promotion To Sergeant 33:12 – Dangers In Housing Projects 35:00 – Emotionally Disturbed Person Job 36:43 – Law Enforcement Suicide 39:05 – Becoming A Lieutenant 46:02 – 9/11 Ground Zero Experience 52:22 – Flight 587 Plane Crash 56:42 – Teaching Terrorism Awareness 57:50 – Promotion To Captain 1:00:11 – Investigations Unit Burnout 1:02:41 – Friends’ Suicides & Impact 1:06:59 – Slow Erosion Of Trauma 1:10:08 – Writing “Timeless Discussions” & Closing Reflections Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly books and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #documentary #marklaita #retired #police #nypd #captain