Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of an ICU nurse in Long Beach, California. Get an exclusive 15% discount on Saily data plans! Use code softwhiteunderbelly at checkout. Download Saily app or go to https://saily.com/softwhiteunderbelly. For ad-free, uncensored videos and plenty of exclusive content please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at https://softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. 0:00 What qualities are needed to be a nurse? 0:32 Childhood and growing up in Santa Barbara 1:22 Relationship with her dad and blended family 2:37 Rough parts of childhood: racial identity and isolation 5:20 Being called racial slurs and people pleasing 7:04 Identity struggles as a mixed-race child 9:01 Moving to a more diverse school, new challenges fitting in 11:08 Changes over time and cultural shifts 12:07 High school, music industry dreams, and diagnosis with OCD 13:20 Becoming a nurse later in life 14:30 ICU nursing: death, survival, and hospital politics 15:48 The reality of hospital systems and corporate politics 17:02 Emotional cost of nursing and desensitization 18:16 Fighting for patients despite hospital rules 20:04 Types of trauma seen as an ICU nurse 21:02 Helping families through grief and fear 22:36 Authenticity and intimacy in the ICU 24:15 Balancing empathy and professional detachment 26:03 How nursing changed Sarihn over 10 years 28:02 Hospital culture: bullying and survival mentality 29:00 Honest advice for aspiring nurses 31:13 Physical toll and personal sacrifices in nursing 33:11 Struggles between patient care and hospital management 34:57 Sarin’s greatest strength: deep human connection 37:34 Most challenging ICU patients: young lives lost 39:04 Sarin’s views on God and religion 41:08 How experiences in the ICU impacted her beliefs 43:52 Exploring other religions and family judgment 47:04 Why witnessing suffering strengthened her atheism 51:12 Society’s discrimination against atheists 54:01 Morality without religion 57:12 Speaking out about atheism and mental health impact 1:02:12 Isolation, health struggles, and deciding to be authentic 1:04:04 COVID experience in healthcare 1:04:58 Most important life lesson: Be an individual 1:06:54 Closing thoughts and gratitude 1:07:21 Soft White Underbelly book announcement Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly books and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org. #nurse #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #marklaita #documentary #icu #lifelessons #atheist #mentalhealth #healthcare #hospital