In a gripping and vulnerable interview, Lori takes us on her journey of being raised in a picture-perfect Mormon household, only to find herself betrayed by the misogynistic teachings and practices of the Church. As a feminist trapped in a patriarchal system, she recounts the jarring experience of going through the temple for the first time, feeling like she had entered a cult. Despite her discomfort, she persevered for decades, until the cognitive dissonance and oppression of women triggered debilitating panic attacks and a mental health crisis. Lori's courageous story is a testament to the strength it takes to break free from indoctrination, find one's authentic self, and embrace true peace and equality outside the confines of orthodoxy. Her raw honesty about the harmful effects of Mormonism on women's mental health and her path to healing and purpose will resonate deeply with anyone who has struggled to reconcile their beliefs with their lived experience. If you are feeling suic*dal, please seek help. Call 988 (US) https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/988 Episode Show Notes: https://www.mormonstories.org/portfolio-items/rs-presidency-nightmare/ 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:35 Lori’s intentions for telling her story 00:04:35 The beginning of her Mormon Story 00:10:55 Learning about polygamy in seminary 00:16:10 Going through the temple for the first time 00:19:18 The True Order of Prayer 00:25:15 She diverted from the normal woman path 00:28:00 The Family Proclamation 00:33:00 She was in the ward relief society presidency 00:38:40 Focus on modesty 00:45:50 New policy of not wearing capris and getting fired 00:53:25 Lori began questioning God and experiencing panic attacks 00:57:25 She began questioning further 01:00:00 The inequality of women 01:06:00 Experiencing panic attacks for three years straight 01:09:40 She was never told about anxiety or panic attacks until three years later 01:15:14 Microaggressions around women in the church 01:22:40 She ended up going to a mental hospital 01:26:15 She called the suicide hotline 01:32:04 Finding true peace away from the temple 01:35:00 The church has designed it for women to be trapped 01:42:00 Yoga - savasana 01:44:00 Statement from Sister Dennis 01:49:20 Key points of healing, growth, development in rebuilding 01:52:26 Seeking out new connections after leaving, real friends 02:02:10 Family Promise, housing for families 02:05:40 Challenges of rebuilding 02:08:50 Taking away the stigma of getting help 02:10:25 The joys of rebuilding 02:10:45 One of the great gifts of leaving the church ___________________ At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as well as scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1. Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology 2. Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis 3. Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions 🤝Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?default_interval=m Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Venmo: https://account.venmo.com/u/mormonstories Paypal: https://paypal.me/mormonstories Join this channel to get access to perks: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx6OgmoqJbOVRq-Lv1P7SzA/join Our Platforms: 🌐Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes 🎙️Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories ✳️Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7dRjODTSEqzZKZJzk?si=148b0efc1ccc4404&nd=1 🍎Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mormon-stories-lds/id312094772 🖼️Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories 📱TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstoriespodcast 🎮Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: 📧 MormonStories@gmail.com 📬PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117