Tina's upbringing in the Mormon Church seemed uneventful until she had a troubling temple experience that made her question whether it was a cult. Zane, initially attracted to Tina's spirituality, went through his own faith crisis after reading anti-Mormon literature but eventually had a "spiritual experience" reaffirming his belief in the church. Their story takes a dramatic turn when Tina starts losing her testimony, leading to emotional turmoil within their marriage, especially since Zane is called to be a bishop. The couple navigates the complexities of a non-believing bishop leading a congregation and the challenges of facing their doubts and fears while remaining true to themselves and their family. Note: The airing of this episode was delayed at the request of the Beards until they felt more comfortable in their circumstances for it to become public. 00:00:00 Intro and intentions 00:12:15 Tina's faithful upbringing 00:16:50 A bad experience at the Temple 00:29:30 Finished mission on a spiritual high 00:32:00 Zane: partier to "dry" Mormon 00:49:30 Zane’s first Temple experience and mission to Perth. He hated it at first but eventually became zealous. 00:56:45 Engaged to Tina within 2 weeks of getting home 00:59:30 Exclusion of Zane’s family from the Temple wedding 01:02:00 Marriage is not what it’s cracked up to be 01:22:00 Disparity of gender roles in Mormonism 01:39:15 Zane is called as bishop in March 2020 by First Presidency just before COVID 01:51:00 Tina compares her misery in Church to the happiness of those outside of it 01:58:30 Lack of training or support for Bishops & family 02:27:00 Connections between Mormonism and cults 02:40:00 Tina continues to “fake it” out of fear of being villainized 02:43:15 Gospel Topics Essays - I started to not trust the narrative given 02:47:45 Tina tells Zane, terrified he will leave her & Zane’s reaction 03:03:00 Zane’s faith journey after Tina loses hers 03:16:00 Complexities of losing faith as a Mormon bishop 03:37:00 Tina’s thoughts on how to step down 03:44:00 Should the Mormon church be worried? 03:52:00 How is the Mormon church harming itself for not empowering women? 03:57:00 Tina’s testimony of Zane’s love of people 04:00:00 We used to see in black and white, and now we see in color 04:01:30 Thoughts on future membership, resignation, disciplinary council/excommunication? ___________________ At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as well as scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1. Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology 2. Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis 3. Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions 🤝Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?default_interval=m Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Venmo: https://account.venmo.com/u/mormonstories Paypal: https://paypal.me/mormonstories Our Platforms: 🌐Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes 🎙️Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories ✳️Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7dRjODTSEqzZKZJzk?si=148b0efc1ccc4404&nd=1 🍎Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mormon-stories-lds/id312094772 🖼️Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories 📱TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstoriespodcast 🎮Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: 📧 MormonStories@gmail.com 📬PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117 #MormonStories #Mormon #lds