Content warning: brief mention of suicidality After her marriage to a "worthy" priesthood-holding Returned Missionary goes south when her husband is arrested for fraud, Louisa Killian finds love & equality in a relationship outside of the Church and a fulfilling career teaching dance at BYU. But when it's time to renew her Temple Recommend to keep her ecclesiastical endorsement (a requirement for employment at the Church school), Louisa finds that honesty has severe consequences. https://www.louisakillian.com Chapters: 00:00:00 Introduction 00:06:00 Beginning of Louisa’s story 00:10:30 Adolescence, Obedience, and “Rebelliousness” 00:16:40 Dealing with death, grief, and loss of loss of her father 00:26:00 Feeling the hustle of all the things that she “should” do 00:36:30 Getting married and warning signs 00:51:00 When things started to go wrong 01:10:30 From U of U to BYU, the Second Bomb drops, marriage ends 01:19:10 Finding meaning in creativity in choreography 01:21:15 Getting hired at Snow College and BYU 01:32:15 Losing faith at BYU, getting married a 2nd time 01:44:00 Watching documentaries about sociopaths, cults 01:46:00 Dealing with conflict between eroding faith and BYU faculty position 01:59:30 Deciding to be honest with Mormon bishop & given a 90-day ultimatum Episode Show Notes: https://mormonstories.org/podcast/byu-professor-losing-faith-louisa-killian/ Losing Faith as a BYU Professor - Louisa Killian Pt. 2 | Ep. 1699 https://youtu.be/DZfdfvLjeYA _________________________ ABOUT US: Mormon Stories Podcast is the longest-running and most successful podcast in Mormonism - hosted by Dr. John Dehlin. At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. We also occasionally interview scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1) Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology, 2) Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis, and 3) Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions. Mormon Stories Podcast is a product of the Open Stories Foundation - a 501c3 non-profit dedicated to supporting Mormons in religious transition. Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today: One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?default_interval=m Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Amazon Smile: Be sure to select “Mormon Stories” website: https://smile.amazon.com app: https://amz.run/5r2M Our Platforms: Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7dRjODTSEqzZKZJzk?si=148b0efc1ccc4404&nd=1 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mormon-stories-lds/id312094772 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstoriespodcast Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: MormonStories@gmail.com PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117 #MormonStories #Mormon #lds